Boyfriend

Okay, all those posts have been about the same guy, just by the way

1. kissing

2. not trusting, and then i did

i got burned

3. because then he was becoming distant

4. he broke up with me

in the most horrible way

5. i pretended it hadn't happened

.. but it still hurts

this guy and i are over. new so called "romance" ones will not be about him

Pretending

Okay, so this is a song


Pretend for me boy, tell me a story
You can pretend I wasn't hurt, you can pretend I didn't cry
That you didn't hear my whimpers and coughs.... but that would be a lie
I can pretend to not care and flirt with other boys
but deep down it still pains me so much.
to pretend..... for you
so pretend for me boy, tell me a story
of a perfect life
love neverending
of a boy and a girl
together forever

I guess forever wasn't as long as I thought it'd be....

I'm sitting here crying, pretending I'm over you
You can pretend that you cared
I hope you still feel guilty
So let's just keep pretending that we don't hate each other and are happy, not sad.
Yet the melancholy washes over me.....
as I try to pretend
try to believe this story.. try again

So pretend with me, keep this our secret
Let's hide the pain
Even though we are not together, together we can always....
pretend

Breaking Point

I can’t believe it
The words spewing from your mouth
A call?No, I didn’t receive it
Not even a message
Not one word from you

Instead I get your friend asking me to break up with you

Because you don’t share the feelings anymore

What does that mean?

I was shocked

I didn’t know just what to do

So I called

No one picked up the phone

I hear there’s a party

Is that what you call playing Call of Duty alone?

I thought my eyes deceived me

This couldn’t be how it was going to end

We were so perfect

I guess I just didn’t read the signs

I was in my own world

Which I thought was our world

I guess I was wrong

You are better then this

There’s no need to make me cry

I am a big girl

Break-ups are common

Everything fizzles out in the end

It’s not that huge a deal

Breathe Carly, just breathe…

Yet then the fateful ring

My phone buzzing in my lap

Your name showing up on my screen

I swallow hard, click okay

Say hey

What do you want?

All you can say is sorry.

My vision is blurred

I started to cry.

Whimpering, sneezing, coughing, shuddering

I was sickly and upset, brokenhearted through and through

I say it really hurt me

That we’re over, I’m not turning back.

Tears are streaming down my face

Look what you have done!

I hope you feel horrible

You draw me in with sweet words like:

“Don’t cry. You’re beautiful”

If this is how you feel,

Why did we just break up?

You just don’t care anymore.

Even had the audacity to say to my face:

“I went out with you because I didn’t want to hurt you”

You just blasted me into oblivion

Are you trying to tear me apart?

I felt so guilty

For being so mean

When you say all those things like

“You’re amazing”

Then I hear I’m a pity date.

I hope you rot in hell.

Hear my screams

Crying out in anguish

Listen, I can hardly talk

I have to go

I can’t listen anymore.

This is way too hard

I’m hardly keeping myself together

So I just say bye

Turn off the phone

Hold it to my chest,

And cry alone.

You

You. I feel like you're not caring... and all my friends are suddenly talking to you, and pushing their greasy lips up against your sweet ear. I can't stand it. I can hardly speak to you. My stomach flip flops over and churns as fast and roughly as waves. My eyes burn into the back of your head. My lips speak tongues of the devil. Yet when you turn, a smile tugs at my mouth and I wrap my arms around you carefully. Once I let go and am gone, the pain seeps back in. Or more, crashes back onto me, almost taking me down. You know who you are. Don't you dare play me.