Frozen hearts

The world is cold. It creates icicles in your hair and your skin cracks. 
Ice forms over everything. 
A numbing freeze fills your heart. 
And you’re gone….. all gone. and cold. and empty


Your heart is frozen for many a years
and it slowly dies and pulses less loudly
until a crack forms
and that single break may just kill you
because the cold shell breaks open


a piercing last breathe escapes
and your heart begins to bleed
a hindered pulse
and your heart lays to rest
the world is gone
because you are gone

Pearl

I swim.

Through this pearl field

In the ocean

I pick some up

and they are beautiful

yet they crack in my hand

… . or float away

I see you, a small opaque pink of a pearl

I gently touch my hand to you

and you are smooth

I gingerly pick you up,

as I do not want to break you

or let you float away

I do not hold on too tight

for fear that you may leave,

or endure a scratch

I want to take you home

like a dolly in my pocket

yet I am too scared

of breaking another beautiful pearl

. . especially the most stunning of them all

Change

Things Change
I change
You change
Our perceptions change
and life goes on

I'm done with being amazed
like a puppy dog running after the new owner
I want to learn
and stop being jealous
by things I do not know of

I deflect certain answers
And open up with others
I almost cry when I talk about seeing my friend's heart crack
and smile and relate when talking about love

I do not miss the butterflies.... they have never left
I am becoming more mature
to spend more time with you
yet do not want to change myself just for that

You have changed me
I have changed
I am more open, more opinionated, more honest
I found a new boy
he is kind of like you
maybe now things won't fizzle
but he's almost too much like you
almost too reminding
that i reminisce
and wish to change yet again

Life goes on
I change
Maybe I changed for you
Maybe everything is different
Maybe I was wrong....

And yet I still throw myself to the wind

Oh goodness.

I haven't written on my blog in 12 days! I really need to get back in the habit,...

Love love love your favorite Listener,
Carly